It’s funny how often times bad things happen for a reason. Well for me this is true. Last Thursday I ended up in a parking lot on the other end of town with a non-working vehicle! I was lucky I made it into that parking lot. My van’s battery was completely drained and it was now giving out on me. Terror struck in. I felt a sinking pain at the pit of my stomach while help came along. A very nice man came to my rescue and helped push it into a parking stall.
That day was hard. I walked and jogged for more than 2 hours. Running home to get the kids from school, then running back to meet the tow truck, and finally, the aching walk home.
It is in these dark moments in our lives that we unearth the strength we didn’t remember we had. I had so much time to think, to enjoy the outdoors, to breathe in the cold winter air (it was minus 20 without the windchill). I realized how utterly out of shape I am! But it was in these moments that I had a deep gratitude for everything I have in my life. A wonderful husband that would do anything for me, 5 beautiful kids who make me smile everyday, a passion burning inside of me to create wonderful art, and a family (parents brothers sister) only a phone call away, always there for me.
It was in this moment that I saw everything. The van became meaningless to me. It is simply an object. It gets me where I need to go, that is all. I no longer worried about the money it would cost to fix it, or the fact that I might not have a vehicle to drive. I was simply grateful!
The weekend was filled with family happiness, time together and lots of love. Thoughts of what happened had vanished, and I was in a complete state of peace. I also did alot of walking with my husband, and realized how much I missed it! How much I love the connection I feel to the world when I walk. I see things in a whole other way…a totally new perspective.
Many things were realized this weekend, and I am so happy about it! I should get a call today to pick up my van, but I won’t forget this weekend. I truly see it as a blessing in disguise!